i'm gonna continue this rampage.
Honestly; WTF is she thinking man?
If she knew i was gonna LIE coz i cant b freakin bothered to tell her the truth since she'd think i'd be lying again, what for ask me?
TOTALLY RETARDED.
And she can't even tell when i just CANT be bothered to listen to what she's saying.
I mean; what's the point of listening to her if she doesnt even bother listening to me?
And, come on.
She doesn't even care about my problems.
All she cares about is having a chance to criticize me here and there again and having the time of her life venting her anger on me.
ALL on me.
Just say it;
say you prefer her more than me.
Won't you do that;
for both our sake?
Well then;
if you can't do it.
You're the coward;
the failure.
Maybe i'm just having some stupid family problems
People believe i'm the type that doesn't cry no matter what
But you know.. I DO and I DID.
Especially right now; when i feel that i've lost not only a father
But my mother too.
Normally; i'd just keep quiet and suffer in silence.
But; what did you know? It became so much that i started confiding in the most unlikely people.
And even so, i couldn't tell them the most important thing.
The thing that's been affecting me the most.
- I feel like an outsider; an extra; like everyone hates me in 3B.
- I don't know anyone. I don't feel as if i belong anywhere.
- Sally never listened no matter how hard i tried to share
- I didn't want to go home and be blamed for everything i did and didn't do.
- I didn't want to wallow in pity. I couldn't bring myself to just cry it all out after all this years.
- Everything and everyone just suddenly... left and went mugging.
- My mother didn't care; nor did she show that she cared.
- She didn't even pretended to care.
- That parent did despicable stuff again.
I feel as if i lost everything.
As if i'm better off dead.
After all, i'm still a girl that lived so far hanging on a thread.
Stop taking advantage of me just cause i won't talk back.
Or to be exact, i CANT BE BOTHERED to.
I don't see the point in wasting both my time and energy to argue something pointless that was indeed; BEYOND MY CONTROL.
Get
A
Life.
A
Life.
